2003-01-04 - 10:33 am
I'm not entirely sure what to do with myself. It would be much easier if I could just sleep a while longer but anymore than eight hours and I just get cranky. So instead it's 10:33am and I have no idea what to do.
Austin left for work early this morning and I'll probably head down there eventually to meet him after his shift is over, providing I don't get terribly lost along the way. All I know is to take the street car to the very end, by the University and walk towards the water - general instructions that should get me where I want to go. But knowing me, I'll probably get mugged, hit-on, and arrested on my way. I don't do well alone in America.
My trip is coming to an end, having only three days left and then it's back to dry and dreary Calgary. School will already be in session, I will have missed three classes by the time I get back in town. Mom has left and I won't see her nor Austin until at least April. The only solace I have about the coming months is the possibility of going to Toronto during Reading Week and drowning myself in my school work. Thank goodness for studios being open until 2am.
It's hard to stay up beat about everythiing when I decided to skip my period this month through forcing my body to accept more hormones because now I'm just more sensitive than I was before. I'm beginning to think I should have just let it happen since by the fourth day into any visit either Austin or I make, sex becomes scarce.
Hm, I should be quiet before I start sounding more bitter than I actually am. A shower, yea, that's what I need. Then fresh fruit and knitting. Anything to keep me from being so nervous about being alone.
