2003-01-28 - 10:57 pm
Caught the end of President Bush's State of the Union on tv tonight. It's hard not to feel something about the whole Iraq-Korea-USA-UN-thing, but I don't feel educated enough to make a formal opinion on it. I tend to put my foot in my mouth far too often whenever I try to discuss it (see my response to the 9/11 anniversary archived far back in the, uh, archives). So, I'll just say that I don't condone war with anyone for any reason. There are more peaceful and grown-up solutions to problems than resorting to stick fights and name calling.
Towards the end of the Address, I started envisioning worse-case-scenarios. Biological warfare and nuclear bombs like the movies. Dramatically suffocating in my bedroom while watching CNN as the rest population dropped one by one. I used to read so many books based the possibility of nuclear holocaust when I was younger, it's this weird fascination. I can't get enough of the things I'm afraid of: war, killer bees, biological and chemical warfare, tornadoes, earthquakes... It's almost like I'm unconsciously forcing myself to have a panic attack.
February 5 is the deadline. I wonder how things will get when a war starts, how things will change - specifically Canada's relationship with the United States if indeed the federal government decides to stick with the UN. I wonder if I'll just continue to go to school, blissfully ignorant and buried in homework. I wonder if any of this will have any direct effect on my life at all or if it will all still feel like something on the tv.
I have drawings due, a paper to write, studying to focus on, and research to start. I shouldn't be sitting here.
