2003-03-10 - 11:47 pm
I feel better now even though it seems that each bath I take the more critical I become of myself. I need my roots redone, my hair trimmed and reshaped, my legs shaved and smooth. I silently made a promise to myself tonight that I won't touch anything about my physical appearance until spring as finally sprung. I've been going so long now without paying much attention to what I look like, I don't think it would kill me to go a little longer.
It would be so much easier if I knew exactly what colour combinations of drugstore hair dye I needed to achieve the mahogany hair colour I always get at the salon. I'm tired of having orange hair every time I dye it myself and I'm terrified of accidently ruining the hair that has taken me 21 years to love.
Dad gave me a cheque for 100$, something he does about once a month to help me cover parking fees and rare nights out. I think I'll splurge next week and buy a dress at Blue Light Special or that one thrift store in Marda Loop. Anything to bring spring a little closer and this weather a little warmer. Plus, I need to start creating my new summer wardrobe asap if I want to be garrunteed nice vintage dresses that actually fit.
Ideal Summer Wardrobe for 2003:
• At least five new dresses, preferably all sleeveless and kneelength with varying cuts and waist lines including gaudy prints such as bold polka dots and anchors to be worn with satin and/or cotton slips in equally offensive colours.
• Fuschia/baby pink low top Converse.
• One floppy hat to guard my fair skin from ultraviolet rays.
• New pair of thong sandals since the blue ones have go MIA.
• A perfect cardigan to alternate with the blue one I currently wear all the time.
Wednesday and I are supposed to go shopping once the weather clears up. Our love for cheesey clothes and thrift shopping is something that I haven't been able to top with anyone else here in Calgary. We have plans to make an entire day of it, heading out in the morning and even having a picnic in the parking lot.
And for some reason I think I've mentioned this before. Hm.
I've been thinking a lot about driving with the windows down and music blaring. Whizzing through freeways and suburban streets, zig zagging through downtown. When Austin visits in June we're going for a trip, just the two of us. I daydream about it constantly. So many of my fantasies revolve around driving and roadtrips, possibly a result of spending every summer as a child in the car driving across the province.
I'm going to make this summer worthwhile, I need to. Last summer was so drab and I need to make up for it because I hate this feeling of not living enough.
Other news: I started putting together the flats for the second issue of my zine. I don't have all the writing collected yet but I figured I would get a start on it anyway. I bought floral vinyl for the covers and I'm in love with it already. This is going to be perfect for the spring (it's goal release date), I just know it.
I also made a hat this morning, though if you read my Livejournal you've probably already seen this picture. It's a little too small for me since I miscalculated the measurements but I love it nevertheless. It makes me feel like a bankrobber, how it sits so precisely on the crown of my head. Though Dad says it makes me look "really artsy" in combination with the other handmade things I was wearing today.
Oh: And I got a B+ on my evil Art History midterm. Go me.
Anyway, I've typed enough. It feels good to just ramble on about my day again after taking a year off from it. I don't even care if anyone reads this anymore but it's nice when someone does.
Sleep is needed.
