2003-04-14 - 7:00 pm
Tomorrow is officially my last day of classes. I have a drawing due but I'm waiting a little while longer before I start on it. See, I'm still recovering for Art History mania that struck me last night and made me batty this morning. Although the exam was alright, my heart is still trying to get back to regular beating patterns. My brain isn't focused on drawing, it's focused on sleeping.
I think I will do a small pencil drawing of a tea cup or something equally as domestic and mundane. Later though.
Came home to a message on the machine—Sterling Shoes finally called me back. The manager there must be pretty desperate to have called me weeks after I passed in my resume. She turned me down first but I'm glad I gave her my resume anyway because I know I could be a valuable asset to that store. With all the shoe experience I have (over 2 years' worth of retail) and the fact that I spent the majority of my time at Naturalizer, one of their competitors in the same mall, I'm pretty indespensible and I'm not afraid to acknowledge it. I know a ton about shoes and how shoes should fit, and most of all I love shoes and working with the public (as bitchy as some people can be).
Anyway, I have an interview set up for Wednesday afternoon. I'm still going to attend the interview I have at Hallmark just so I can have some options open. Even though a part-time job is what I would love to have I know that having a full-time job is probably more "responsible". I just hate the idea of working while Amanda and Austin are visiting (both at different times, though I wish that they could be here at the same time because that would be awesome). Though, Dad is right: I will have to get all my hours in now so I can take time off in the coming months. Plus, I need money SO BAD.
I sent my Mailorder Madness money off to Austin today and it made me so sad to see 174$ in my account and disappear a few minutes later. That's honestly the most money I've had in my possession since September of last year. I'm so broke that I can't even stand it anymore. I need to have money of my own, money I can save and not feel horrible about spending.
But that's not to say the money I gave Austin wasn't worth it. Hell, I'd give my left leg to be with that boy if I had to.
I'm pretty confident that I will be able to land this full-time position at Sterling considering my background in shoe retail and the fact that the manager is desperate for a full-time employee other than herself. I'll be happy to be working every day instead of sitting on my ass watching Happy Tree Friends until my brain melts out my nose. I just hope that the environment at Sterling isn't as hostile and dramatic as it was at Naturalizer. I can't take workplace drama... fuck, it's worse than high school drama.
Though, maybe I am jumping the gun on this. If my luck I'll be so overly confident that I won't get either position. I mean, not everyone is going to like me so I can't assume that everyone will.
Anyway, this is a very refreshing thing to be thinking about considering what's been on my mind all weekend. It's a relief to focus on myself and circumstances that directly involve me. There's only so much of "those issues" that I can take before I explode.
It's 7pm. I guess I should start my drawing so I can crawl in the bathtub and read more of that book I've been trying to read for almost a year now.
