2003-09-25 - 6:55 pm
A lot of things have happened over the last week: emotional ups and downs, revelations, confrontations, confessions and release. I won't get into the specifics right now because it's not important anymore. The point is that I finally feel like I took some amount of control back. I had no idea how self-damaging I was until I had become eye to eye with my behaviour.
What I find funny is how important everything felt just a few days ago but right now it barely holds much weight. It's not that I've completely forgotten or that I'm "over it" by any means, I suppose I've settled into some sort of resolution that seems to work with everything else in my life. I'm not angry or upset anymore because I've realized that it's not worth my energy.
I apologize for being extremely vague. Maybe you'll just have to imagine what's written between the lines because it's about time I got a little secretive.
Now that I have a major assignment for tomorrow completed, I'm left with an entire evening of free time. Having Thursdays completely off in the middle of a tremendously busy 40+hr work week is great. This morning I slept in and even took time to go to the bank and look at magazines in a bookstore. I don't feel pressured today and that's exactly what I need.
This weekend is going to be nonstop. Between working at school, working at the card shoppe and going on a movie date with C., today will be my only rest day. Yet, as busy as I'm going to be, I'm looking forward to it because "Idle hands make the devil's work," as my mother says.
Anyway, I just thought I should check in here. I have an hour before my hair appointment during which I must resist The Simpsons and read English articles on Indian myths (they're so confusing to me for some reason—it's all the names I can't pronounce and continuous reincarnations that make storylines even more complex). Hopefully this good mood will carry on for the rest of the week.
